Where would I go?

I'm back at my Dad's house for the weekend which has kind of cheered me up a bit. I've been slightly depressed about RL and university work. So coming back to the country side has lifted my spirits a bit. I'm a country boy at heart.

Not much movement going on in SL. Tel and I keep missing each other online so I'm still not collared. I have however got my collar, cuffs and silks ready to wear when the time comes. Hopefully I'll catch him today. Fran has been talking about closing Tidra which I really don't want to happen. I can understand his frustration of there only being 5 of us there but would be a shame to have worked on something for so many months only to close it down. I want to do all I can to help but not sure what I can really do though. Can't really go to other sims and pass out landmarks. I don't know any other Gor people. All my friends are either kids, women or straight. Or not into RP. Where would I go if Tidra was to close? I know Tel doesn't want a personal slave and I've had an offer from River that I could follow him and Fran but I don't know if Fran wants me as a personal slave. To be honest I'm not sure I want to be a personal slave to anyone...not yet anyway. I'll learn how to be a better slave quicker if I'm a fort slave. At least that's what I think. Sey has also offered I can follow him to another Gor sim. I don't know. Seems as soon as I find a new place it all falls apart. I don't want to see that happen to Tidra. I want to see it grow and flourisher. Gotta think what I can do to help.

Someone told me something quite personal last night which I think brought us closer together. Which is awesome. I always found it a bit hard to strike up conversation as I wasn't quite sure what to say. Now I feel a lot closer to this person :)

I couldn't help but annoy my ex last night. It had been the first time we 'kinda' talked since I took him off my friend list. I'm still "in a huff" to quote a friend. If that's what he wants to call it then fine. I think my actions are perfectly reasonable after the way he treated me. The 'intelligence' he apparently has is far superior then my own of course. I couldn't understand his pain and suffering over the whole ordeal. Pfft I did and I tried to be nice no matter how much I was hurting inside. Now stop being a selfish asshole and grow a pair. I could rant on for days but it's not worth the effort.

Bitter that he was partnered about a week after our split...maybe. Lol. Feels like no matter how much I care or love someone it will still get shoved back in my face. Wah this is turning into quite a ranty blog entry. It was going to happen. I miss having someone I wait online for and who would wait for me, instantly im-ing me and wanting to know how I am. Go exploring, talk for hours about nothing and all that shizz. Blah. I just can't see it happening again.